Reason

The greatest of all the pain finally hit it's satisfaction.One of the fastest ejections of all the time,the hero was out from the Divine hole .  Nothing special happened that day. Sun rose in the east, day was exact twenty four hours, 1,234 road accidents,  no India Pakistan war started. But, a wind from east did hit hard on that hospital wall . But, foundation was strong enough and it survived the attack from east and saved a massacre. It was like the womb didn't want to carry him no longer. His mother emptied herself so fast, and it was not her fault. Nobody want to carry him longer, he was such a kind of jerk. No one can hold him in their mind because he was born to be hated.  A hero that everyone hates. A story that nobody wants to listen.

Like most of the kids, he was come out with a crying face, cracking voice and a vulgar look. He was out with a license to fool around.  He holds the winning card, but life turned its back on him. Maybe , better say he, our hero, was little bit different. He went to the back side of life and opened his eyes. How can we blame life for his mistake. He was terrified by the greatest dungeon of life. He never saw the mountains of victory in the front side.  He was like a person who try to think  different. Like, if an ass come first and a hole second he, our dearest hero call it as holeass and that makes a real difference in the real world.

He always dreamed about being the protecter of his nation, the savior of the poorest.  But fate made him as the king of fooldom.  the king of loss, the king of ignorance. He was always defeated by humiliation . He never became a hero in his real life.  failed ignored , humiliated mind  exploded one day. He drilled his rusted brain with a metal piece which was traveled at a velocity of 173mps. That was more than enough to  make a small hole in this universe. The void he left remains unrecognized. No one want to occupy that dirty void in this universe. The smoking  gun laughed to him. he waved his hands to this world, like a boy waving his hands to a moving train. Just in vain.

Its all about music..ithink!

Today, my topic is about music. It's a cheap act, to number music, i know. But, after seeing all those 'must heard' music lists i thought about preparing my own list. Please let me, its my ardent desire, blah! Well, I'm nothing and i don't know about music at all. I don't even know how to keep a guitar in my hand. But, music according to me is my addiction. It's my medicine and its my companion. It's a best cure to those who are suffering with this loneliness crap. To me, with a cigarette in my lips and music in my ear when no one around, a starry night must be perfect. I mean it like 'fucking awesome' thing. Man, I'm really missing those days. Now, life is crap in a room in front of a computer, writing blog by numbering music and craps like that, it feels like a hell outta damn world, you don't know it. I'm suffering now.Can you feel it? C'mon, how can you , it was a stupid question. I apologize. Man,the last few years, damn. The life was not easy and it was not filled with happiness and all those stuff. Who fuck with this happiness crap? I hate it being too much happy, anyway. My life was good because it was with full freedom that i lived. I don't think you got what i meant. Well, I don't wanna think about it, it will spoil me. So, don't expect more. ok! 

Sorry, I'm not here to shit about my past years anyway . But actually I'm thinking about this problem. I'm always deviating from the main topic. Maybe its a horrible disease and medical science had already put some goddamn  name for it. Well, I need to find it and want to learn how to pronounce it anyway. So music, its difficult job to categorize them, to me what keeps my feelings OK is good music. Favorite list may vary b'coz I'm not a robot. The list I'm gonna make today is based on my experience with music till today. Maybe, you can't agree with this. Of course you can speak about it but remember one thing its my list in my fucking blog. Love to music may vary from person to person. But, till last year i was not aware about this bad music stuff. According to me, the music was either good or not good, but then, SILSILA came. Now, i know about the worst part of music, anyway. Whats my point is if you are not good at making music don't force your body to make it. It means 'Don't Kill' music in a way. 

Well, my journey was from Malayalam film and devotional songs to Hindi and tamil film songs to Pop songs to Punk rock to metal to heavy metal to Death metal to Gothic metal to Melodic death metal to folk metal to jazz to soul music to compositions  to blah to blah to blah. I think now i can make a list of my own b'coz I'm confident enough in music  when no musicians around. Common dude, I'm not going to sing a song. Just making a list taking the song sung by others,ok! Don't panic. Here goes my list I'm not sure about the number of songs, well lets see.