Now, at this moment, all i can say about 'life' is its negative side. Man, life is a helluva journey from one disaster to another and to another and to another. I swear, places change but situations not. Life seems to be like a fucking hell, full of water and all. I don't know how to swim. I just know to scream like a bastard. I feel like sitting in a lonely goddamn sea-shore, watching the deep sea infront of me and going to the bottom of it. Man, its scary like hell at the bottom, i can feel it.
Its like feeling lonely, but the truth is im not alone..But i feel it like that or i want it like that? helloutta confusing! it seems like the entire goddamn things in front of me is twisting like whirl or something like that. It feels like all the goddamn people outthere laughing at me like some crazy bastards. I want nobody around me. I want to be alone in a desert or somewhere else like a fucking desert, where only sands but no people and all. I felt like this because i really dont have anything to share or talk or laugh or craps like that. I just have some rotten stories of myown thats is not at all interesting. Its a helloutta life, i swear. Life is worst, i dont want o talk. I dont want people to know how sad i am. I really dont like people looking at me like i had pissed in my pants. I dont want anybody around me . And i dont want the fucking help and sympathy that anybody offers. I would rather die than living like a begger, but i dont wanna die now. Life is not worth living but, i dont wanna die and im not going to die. I want to meet more assholes and visit more rotten places.
Whatever crap, life will change oneday because i know it. I was happier before. Its not a sci-fi movie or im not superstitious. So how the fuck i know? Life is a crap, just like seasons. It will change periodically. But the fact about life is you dont know when the fuck it will change. I t will change..Some says, that's the beauty of life. What fucking beauty it brings? Nothing is beautiful. Everything in this world is either ugly or not ugly.
